DXM Diaries, Act Seven: Confessions of a Mortal God
PBIn which a young explorer is consumed by the power of dex... ----- Original Message -----
From: "PB"
To: info@tripzine.com
Sent: Wednesday, December 22, 2004 7:15 PM
Subject: DXM article please read
Hello tripzine. I was looking online for a good DXM
article and I came across the DXM article on oyur
website consisting of 6 different acts. I was very
intrigued. never before have I come across a site
that just straight up blatantly discussed the
supernatural aspects of DXM. I tripped DXM
excessively for about a year, and my friend mike and I
had experiences similar to that of Matt, the DXM guru.
We roamed tripping on Dex and gained supernatural
powers and whatnot. We too thought we were charged
with a sacred quest to trip Dex and spread it among
the masses and develop a following to enlighten
humanity. We didn't so much Have all the paranoia that
is described with Matt, but I understand what Matt is
talking about, when he talks about how DXM shields him
from psi attacks, and all the psychic shit he talks
about, and I can explain it. Unfortunately I was
arrested for stealing cough medicine and I went to a
adolescent substance abuse program right before I
turned 18 (lucky, I would have gotten a much worse
charge if it had been later) and stayed there for 5
months. While I was in the program I studied DXM
excessively. Not through personal use, but I studied
various metaphysical principles, and the sacred
geometry, and experimented excessively with
meditation-induced altered states of perception. I
came to completely understand and became able to
explain the nature of DXM, and the effect it has on
the brain, and after much research and contemplation,
understood WHY the psychic phenomena happens, and
pretty much everything else about DXM.
In tripping and being in and out of the programs, I have had some
insane crazy psychic adventures with a
hippie/industrial friend of mine who is quite a DXM
guru himself, he knows much more about it than me, and
he taught me a lot of what I know through a psychic
bond we developed in our tripping otgether. I would
love to write an article for your magazine, and
explain the true nature of DXM, and talk about my
adventures, and my experiences with it. I am only 18
years old and I am not an established journalist by
any means, I am a high school drop out with my GED,
but I have extensive knowledge of DXM, and I would
LOVE to get it out and have people read it and see
what they think, and what you think, please respond
soon.
Thank you very much
-PB
----- Original Message -----
From: "Trip Magazine"
To: "PB"
Sent: Thursday, December 23, 2004 10:13 AM
Subject: Re: dxm article please read
Hi Phillip, we would be very interested in your DXM article. I am partuclarly
interested in how you use it and what you've figured out about it.
If you have something new to say I'd love to see it.
Thanks
----- Original Message -----
From: "PB"
To: "Trip Magazine" info@tripzine.com
Sent: Saturday, December 25, 2004 12:20 AM
Subject: DXM article
How to become a Mortal God
To understand the true nature of DXM, one must
understand DMT (dimethyltryptamine) and the natural
human sleep cycles. DMT is a chemical produced by the
pineal gland, which is a small pea sized gland near
the center of the brain. DMT is the chemical solely
responsible for the soul leaving and entering the
physical shell. DMT is also found in Ayahuasca vines,
and in the secretions of some tropical toads. Terence
McKenna was the first true pioneer of the DMT realm.
He spoke of a realm consisting of pure knowledge,
created for humans under the chemical's influence to
be received in. In my experience, the DMT experience
is basically existing in spirit form. The dissolution
of all human ego, and the perception of multiple
dimensions of reality at once.
When one is born, the brain is flooded with DMT, thus
the soul enters the body through the pineal gland.
When one dies, the brain is again flooded with DMT,
thus the soul leaves the body through the pineal
gland, and returns to the spirit realm. Another
important thing you must understand is that in deep
lucid states of meditation, and in one's sleep,
smaller amounts of DMT are secreted into the brain,
leaving an open doorway for the soul to leave the body
into the spirit realm as it pleases, thus making
astral projection, and psychic visions possible in
meditation, and in dreams.
[editor's note: The theory that DMT is associated with the soul
entering and leaving the body is discussed in detail in "DMT: The Spirit Molecule"
by Rick Strassman. Since the soul cannot be objectively measured, Strassman's
theory is, of course, highly speculative.]
Now DXM. DXM is a dissociative, everyone knows this.
DXM happens to dissociate the brain just enough so
that it thinks it is asleep. In this state, the brain
shuts off all waking functions, and turns on all
sleeping functions. Thus the pineal gland releases
relatively small amounts of DMT into the brain. This
explains the dreamlike feeling when in the DXM trance.
[editor's note: this is an oversimplification of the DXM trance.
Endogenous DMT secretion under the influence of DXM has not been
objectively measured.]
This also explains the common psychic phenomena that
seem to randomly occur when experimenting heavily with
DXM. When the third eye is pried, and held open, one
cannot help but to accidentally receive psychic
visions, coming true later that day, or somewhere
along the line. In a DXM trance, it is possible to
close one's eyes and instantly be sent to separate
realms. The DXM entranced psyche's energy is so high
that using the power of thought, entire realms can be
"thought" into existence, instantly. You are god.
You create life, and existence. At any rate, it's
just as real as the world you're sitting in right now.
In my experience with DXM, I have found that the
higher the dose, the harder it is to remember that you
are actually awake and just in a DXM trance, when you
are in a lucid trance state. Many times I have closed
my eyes, meditating to Nine Inch Nails, or some other
industrial music to fuel my trip, and found myself
lost in realms I could not comprehend, or nonsensical
situations that I could not control, merely falling
asleep, stuck in a lucid DXM trance state, only to
wake up all ate up the next morning.
DXM makes it possible to enter a lucid state and
perceive basically anything the tripper wishes. I
myself had several realms I visited on a frequent
basis in my trips, and entities I created and spent
time with, and carried on conversations with.
My experience with DXM has been to say the least
incredible. It started when I met someone in my
hometown who had mastered DXM tripping, and had been
doing so for the past six or seven years. He had been
dubbed "CCC Mike" throughout the small Florida town.
He was absolutely a guru of metaphysical and spiritual
knowledge attained through substance-induced altered
states of consciousness. He kept to himself most of
the time, but after a while it was clear to me he had
chosen me to be his disciple, and he taught me
everything he could. We would trip on DXM every day.
I would take on average 1.3 grams a day. I slept very
little, and I ate very little, the drug took my
appetite from me. We would dose in the morning and
take the bus downtown where we would meet up with
other dexers that mike had know from "back in the day"
when the "DXM revolution" first began when I was but a
wee lad in middle school. Mike's and my quest for
higher knowledge was to be later known as the "Second
Revolution". We would sit and meditate, and feed off
of other people's energy. I quickly learned that
there was something special about DXM. It wasn't so
much learning things slowly, or building up knowledge
as I had experienced with psilocybin mushrooms, or
LSD. It was more like, "Here it is, this is the
truth, do whatever you want with it". I came to
understand the nature of the energy fields around me,
and eventually became able to manipulate the energy.
I learned many different techniques. I learned to
leech others' energy. I learned to, not so much read
people's minds, but to read their energy, and pick up
on their vibrations, which is basically the same
thing. I developed several other strange abilities
that I to this day retain, but lack understanding of.
When I have déjà vu, there exists a veritable
time/space window through which I have a brief
opportunity to look ahead and behind in time in vivid
images, displayed in my third eye. I have developed
an ability to superimpose my third eye over my normal
visual field, making my everyday thoughts and
meditations much more vivid and real. I've learned to
induce most any hallucination I wish at any time I
wish. I don't understand these powers, and I've only
come to realize a small fraction of their potential.
I haven't found reports of anything similar anywhere.
I'm sure I'm not the only one though.
DXM is so completely alien to everything and anything
I have ever experienced. It is a completely different
tripping. At this point in my life, I believe DXM
isn't so much about knowledge as it is about power.
The power to utilize the one infinite cosmic truth
that we are all one, and we all consist of one energy
mass, and that energy mass can be manipulated and used
to our endless advantages, if learned to harness
correctly.
However, I have found that there is a downside to
DXM. Repeated DXM use, or heavy binging, like I was
doing, quickly has an adverse effect on one's ability
to feel emotions, or to associate the appropriate
emotion to situations or circumstances. I found
myself angry constantly. Constantly displeased with
the ignorance and vanity of the human race, and Mike
and I thought we were charged with a sacred quest to
expose DXM and enlighten humanity to the importance of
understanding spiritual principles and existing as one
entity, working and moving in harmony with itself
(Sound familiar? [Matt the DXM boddhisatva]). There
was very much confusion, and random insanity floating
around in my head, that caused me to become detached
form my family and loved ones. Most of my old friends
shunned me and I was popularly viewed as insane. This
became quite the joke between Mike and I, both knowing
full well, we were much more sane than the "normal"
people who thought true knowledge came from textbooks,
and teachers. I had long since dropped out of school,
because I decided that school was taking up too much
of my tripping time, and was thus interfering with my
"real" education. The one that mattered.
In excessively whoring out DXM, I became a bitter,
dark, hateful, violent wretch, bent on changing
humanity for some greater good. A martyr, sacrificing
my personal happiness and contentment for the power to
dump ridiculous amounts of cosmic metaphysical truth
into the collective consciousness on a daily basis.
It wasn't about me anymore, it was about changing this
shithole of a world I was forced into 18 years ago on
an operation table in a hospital in New Orleans. I
was horribly bitter and I wasn't going to stand for
the ignorance and violence in the world.
I alienated myself by acting crazy and erratic in
public places. I knew this would separate me from the
ignorant sheep, and the real people who mattered, the
people who understood what was really going would
filter through and aid me in my quest. And I, them.
I made horrific public scenes such as torturing small
animals and eating lizards in front of crowds of
people in heavily populated urban areas such as
downtown, right in front of the movie theater, ha. I
figured the crazier I could act, the better. This was
a bad idea, because now that I want to actually pursue
social relations, a lot of the people in my small
hometown (in which everyone knows everyone else, and
rumors spread like wildfire) I am still viewed by a
lot of people as crazy, even though I'm off dex now.
After sprinting down my spiritual DXM path at a
ridiculous rate for what seemed like eternity, but was
actually only about a year, my karma caught up with
me. It seemed that in tripping so much DXM for so
long and cheating the cosmic system by attaining
forbidden truth, and spreading it, I was doomed to
horrible luck, and I was in the shit real deep. My
mother put me in a rehabilitation facility for
adolescents. It was a lockdown facility, and it used
to be a hospital so it was relatively nice, we all had
our own rooms, and our own bathrooms. I met a few
kids there who were also there for tripping too much
DXM, and for some reason I am proud to say that I
started a DXM cult like following inside the program,
and I taught them about tripping, and DXM, and
everything I had come to know and experience in the
past several months. Many of them understood, and we
eventually started bucking the system from inside the
program.
I had one friend in there who was almost
finished with the program and I had him sneaking 100
CCC's for me back form his homepasses every weekend,
so I could continue to trip out after lights out in
the program. Before too long they caught on and
searched his room and found 32 corcidins in his
underwear drawer. After this, they searched every
other room, and I had all mine hidden in a secret
compartment in my room I had found. They didn't find
mine despite all their frustration, and thorough
searching. They even strip searched me, how
degrading. At any rate, my shit was busted, it was
all over for me and the DXM kids in the program, so we
decided to split. It was popularly known that there
was one door in the entire facility without a high
powered magnet on it, and it was in the back of the
kitchen, which is guarded by 3 large Italian cooks. I
had a friend sympathetic to our cause create a
diversion while we got up from our table and ran for
the door in the back of the kitchen. We made it
fairly easily with the help of an obscene boost of
adrenaline and busted free out into the parking lot
where I bumped into a woman trying to light her
cigarette and I apologized as I kept running.
We ran a few blocks to my friend's house where my girlfriend
came and met me and Mike was waiting. I instantly
dosed on 16 c's and later took 8 more, and I tripped
out all night. It was great. Until the next morning
when I went to go steal more, I got caught and caught
my first charge, petit theft. I was evaluated in a
police station, still tripped out from the night
before, and it was decided that since I had said I was
not under the influence of drugs, I was insane. I
spent two weeks in a mental institute, where I got to
see a 12 year old crack baby bite off a large man's
finger when he tried to restrain her. Crazy shit.
Anyway, after this I went home for two weeks before I
had to go back to another program, this time with a
court order keeping me there, or I would be on
probation until I was nineteen years old. In this
program, I read a lot. I read very, very, very many
books on metaphysics, and I read about the flower of
life, and all the sacred geometry. I experimented
with natural states of altered consciousness through
meditation, and lucid dreaming. This is how I came to
understand the true nature of DXM, by realizing how a
lucid meditative state and a DXM trance are exactly
the same. I researched DMT, and sleep, and the pineal
gland.
I completed this program, having tripped dex once,
and was caught by my mother, and she ratted me out to
the program, and I had to spend an extra two weeks
there. I was released about a month ago, and since
I've been out I havent used DXM once, but I'm truly
afraid its only a matter of time before I am tripping
dex again, spiraling back into insanity and incredible
psychic power.
By writing this article, I hope to inform as many
people as possible of the true incredible nature of
DXM, for it is truly the most direct, and fastest
route to spiritual truth, but you will run up a tab on
your karma and pay dearly for it later. Just one
piece of advice, make sure if you are going to get
into it heavy like I was, or take it seriously and
trip out hardcore on it, make sure you don't have a
girlfriend, cause shes going to leave your ass. This
drug is going to FUCK you up if you don't keep it in
check, it will make you crazy as hell, but it wont
last forever, my sanity is like almost completely
restored after having gone like 6 months and only
having tripped DXM about twice in the whole 6 months.
Be very afraid of DXM, and treat it with so much
caution, because its very dangerous, and very
powerful.
[editor's note: We have already contacted this individual and advised him to lay off the DXM
for a while.]
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